I Need an Emotional Connection To Why Something Is Considered Socially Wrong To Understand It and Remember To Stop Doing It (an Autistic Perspective)
“You should say you’re sorry!”
“Because what you did was wrong!”
“Don’t talk back to me!”
If you’re autistic, you probably just cringed as confusing and traumatic memories of conversations past bubbled to the surface. If you’re neurotypical, you might be staring at your screen in open-mouthed shock at the familiarity of this frustrating exchange.
Whatever the case, we need to fix this particular miscommunication between the neurotypes right now.
Many neurotypical people equate asking questions with insubordination of some kind. I can’t speak for neurotypical people, but that is NOT the case with most of us autistics.
When we ask “why”, we are looking for more information in an attempt to understand you and your feelings more clearly. That is it. There is NO hidden motivation. None.
(Also, it took many of us into our adult years to even understand that asking a question would have any other purpose other than to get an answer.)
So, that’s the first part. With me so far? OK, good.
The second part is this. Oftentimes, neurotypical people mistakenly believe that autistic people don’t have empathy because we are not responding the way a neurotypical person would to the same social cues and situations. Because of this, when something offensive is said, confusion and even defensiveness (many of us have been deeply traumatized by a lifetime of misunderstandings) rather than the expected apology is often the response one gets from the autistic person in the exchange.
It is not because we don’t have empathy, it’s because we don’t have all the information we need to understand and connect.
See, NT (neurotypical, not autistic) people have the “social playbook”, if you will, that autistic people were just not gifted with. Therefore, if an NT person makes a social mistake (or just says or does something cruel on purpose for whatever reason), they already have the information in their brain that tells them, “Oh, I shouldn’t have said that because _________.” So, when somebody “calls them out” on what they said or did, it is understood that they, the person being “called out”, knows what they did wrong and either just doesn’t care or couldn’t control their emotions in that moment. Since the social information is already presumed to be there, NT people skip over any explanations because they wouldn’t think there would be a need for one.
This is where the “huh” and “why” and “what do you mean” come from in the case of the autistic person. It’s not us trying to wiggle out of a bad situation or “act innocent”, we actually ARE innocent of intentional wrongdoing, and we’re trying to figure out why everybody is angry with us all of a sudden.
Furthermore, as I mentioned above, many of us will have an instant trauma response to perceived anger, frustration, or disgust coming in our direction, and our response may come out defensively because we’re terrified of being physically or emotionally punished for our transgressions (even if we don’t understand what we were perceived to have done wrong).
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The best way to improve communication with your autistic loved one is to understand how your autistic loved one’s mind works! Intentions, motivations, and personal expressions (facial expressions or lack thereof, body language, etc.), are often quite different in autistic people than they are in neurotypical people.
Experience a better understanding of your autistic loved one by reading books about life from an autistic perspective as well as stories that feature autistic characters. You’ll have so many “Ah ha!” moments and start seeing your autistic loved one in a different light (and you’ll have a better understanding of their behaviors, which you may have been misinterpreting up until now).
Books I recommend for a better understanding of your autistic loved one:
Again, we are only asking questions so we can catch up to where you are! Also, and this is very important, once we get to where you are and we have all the information, we can finally make an emotional connection to what you’re offended by and make amends if need be.
Once more, this isn’t because we don’t have the empathy or the emotional capacity to care about others, it’s because we genuinely didn’t know what we said or did was considered wrong by neurotypical social standards, and we need to in order to make that critical connection and remember not to make the same social mistake in the future.
It may be difficult for you to help us connect the dots in the moment, especially if you’re hurt or shocked by something we’ve said or done, but in order for many of us to make that emotional connection and cement a logical reason in our brains as to why we should not have said or done the thing, we won’t likely understand why you’re upset. Furthermore, if we just apologize for hurting you, that’s all well and good, but we’ll probably make the same mistake again because we won’t have enough logical information and the emotional connection necessary to avoid doing that.
This, unfortunately, is yet another thing that makes us look like we don’t care because we keep repeating the same mistakes, but it’s not that we don’t care, we don’t understand. Also, and this is the painful irony, any attempts to understand by asking “why” are usually met with more anger and no answers, which keeps us from learning the critical information we need so we don’t end up hurting your feelings again. And round and round we go until a relationship is severed and somebody ends up in the psychiatric unit (usually the autistic person) of their local hospital.
Like I’ve said in previous blog posts, it’s pretty uncommon for an autistic person to do things out of malice. It’s just not our way. We’re very blunt, and we may have atypical facial expressions or tones of voice that may make it look as though we are cold and uncaring, but that, in most cases, couldn’t be further from the truth.
We care. We just socialize and process the world differently. What seems offensive to you, a neurotypical, may be just conversation to us. Please keep that in mind when interacting with your autistic loved one, and remember to always answer any “why” questions.
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