What “I Don’t Know” May Really Mean for the Autistic Person in Your Life
“I don’t know.” If you hear that answer a LOT from the autistic person in your life, you definitely need to read this post.
When I was younger, especially when I was a child, I answered, “I don’t know” to many questions. Even if I technically may have “known”, and here’s why:
If someone asks me a question, I freeze. It’s not as bad as it used to be, but when I was a kid, questions triggered a PTSD response–(any question, you could have asked me about the weather).
For me, questions equaled, “I’m going to respond “wrong” somehow and be verbally or physically abused.”
Therefore, my brain would just shut down.
Also, and this is important, I often would not know how to answer a question. I had the images in my head, but I couldn’t form them into words and make them come out of my mouth.
I also (with cruel irony) wasn’t able to tell anyone about this fact until very recently.
This lead to a lot of “I don’t know” and shutting down and even melting down if pressed on the topic, which people then mistook as guilt or my trying to hide something, so they started interrogating me, and then I really lost it.
Here’s what “I don’t know” might translate to for your autistic loved one:
“I wasn’t prepared for a question. Now I can’t remember anything that happened today.”
“I’m way too busy masking to ensure my safety to be able to answer that question with any accuracy.”
“I honestly don’t remember even though it happened five minutes ago.”
“I have sensory overload, and I can’t process your question.”
“I didn’t hear you fully, but I’m afraid to ask you to repeat yourself.”
“I know the answer to your question, but I can’t explain it in words. I wish I could just ‘think’ it at you.”
Learn more about how questions might affect your autistic loved one and how you can address this concerns with them by clicking on the photos below.
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